From Jesus Calling
"Trusting me is a moment-by-moment choice."
The last week I have been fighting negativity and selfishness. There is a lot on my plate and that won't really change until July. As excited as I am about the adventure ahead, I can't help but feel bitter that this season has to end. Bitter that I have to say goodbye to people I love and a place that feels like home, realizing this I have prepared for battle.
To fight this bitterness. I refuse to leave here feeling that way, letting the devil win.
Each time I get swept up in bitterness, negativity or selfishness, I pray. There was a car ride this week where I cried as I prayed, honest prayers, I cried out for help and healing and his vision. I had to TRUST him… moment by moment.
… and you know what.
He interceeded!
The next day I had such a great time of fellowship with Aimee, my coworker. We talked about the race and this transition, and we processed. It was exactly what I needed.
Then the things that were couding my vision, causing me stress and makig me feel weak and overwhelmed.. I gave it to him. I said I don't know what's going to happen or how, but it will work out.
… And it has.
God is so good. I know that this joy may fade when new troubles arise, but I know I just have to STOP, find joy in the moment, pray, and give it to Him.
That my friends is something I find JOY in.
"Now to him who can do imeasuarbly more than we can ask or imagine, according to his power at work within us, to HIM be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus"
