“Wow you are gonna have so much fun on your trip, I cant wait to hear about all the cool things you do and see!”. That is the jist of almost every conversation that someone says to me when I tell them what I will be doing for 11 months. But it has always hurt me when people respond this way…..of course I am so beyond excited to go and experience life in 11 different countries but this is not just some trip that is aimed to be ‘fun’. Yes I will have amazing and fun times but this mission I am about to embark on is going to hurt.
No I am not going to get physically hurt (I mean maybe a few bruises and scrapes but thats because Im clumsy), but this is not a trip that is going to make me feel peace because that is not the goal. The goal of what I will be doing in 11 months is to be broken and to leave my heart with people who deserve the world but have nothing. I want to leave my heart with women in sex trafficking and children who do not know what it means to be loved. I want to feel what my God feels when He sees his children of this world in pain.
I keep getting the song Hosanna by Hillsong United stuck in my head and if you have ever listed to it you will hear a line that has stuck with me, “break my heart for what breaks yours”. This is such a recurring feeling for me lately in my life, it is a reminder that I am here to see the pain and try and make it better. That does not mean that I can heal every disease and help feed every hungry person but I know that I must try my best.
This life is an amazing gift from God and I want to know that I did my part to make it better and that I simply did what God wanted me to do and the World Race is just a start to my journey for His glory. I hope that if you are praying for me on this journey that you specifically pray that my heart will be wrecked for every country I go to and that I can give the people I meet every amount of love I have. I cant wait to go and I want to go because God has given me a love for other people that I have never understood why until now.
So I cant wait for my heart to hurt for the people of this world and love them because He loved me first.
