The
word ‘change’ can elicit many emotions in someone’s life. As for me,
I like to think of my emotions as a paradox when it comes to that
word, part of me excitedly wants so much to welcome it and embrace
it, then the other part scorns it. Whenever I feel the winds of
change blowing on me I can easily get lost in questions, daydreams
and doubts. But as I sit here now at 12:30 in the morning, outside,
being able to see my breath, alone with God and the cat; I am at
peace.
Something
that God has tried to hammer into me many times is that change and
discipleship go hand in hand. I’m understanding that at a level I
haven’t known before. God has spoken to me a great deal about
discipleship this year, and His intense beckoning of that from me
over the past month (although I haven’t been the most obedient to it)
I now see as preparation for change.
The
first few months I was home from the race God spent emphasizing to me
that I had indeed changed on the race (especially by calling me to a
40 day fast!), the past 5 months have been spent getting me ready for
what’s next. (For the record I can hardly believe that I’ve been back
for almost a year.)
Here
in a couple of weeks I’ll be moving to Pennsylvania, to the same town
that my WR teammate Sammie, and her husband Jose, live in. While it’s
a big leap to move all the way across the country, I know that now is
the time and this is where God wants me to be. My plans had been to
wait, save more, and move later, but God, always in His infinite way,
changed my plans again. That being said, for those of you I don’t get
a chance to see before I leave, I’m sorry, I didn’t plan to leave so
soon or fast, but as always, I strive to follow God and His
promptings.
You
maybe wondering why I’m moving. Well there are many answers so I’ll
try to sum them up for you. The first being, I feel called and doors
of opportunity are opening up out there that aren’t here. Second, I
can no longer grow in the ways and areas that God wants me to and that I need
to here. Third, I loved the church/community when I was out there in
June and it just felt like home. I am eager to get involved.
Fourth, there is no safety net in going out there and I’ll have to
really rely on God.
I
am excited for this new adventure and what it will lead to. I don’t
know why PA as far as the ‘big
picture’ of my life, but I don’t need to know, I just have to go. 😉
I
hope for you that you would embrace the winds of change in your life
too. While it’s scary, it’s also exciting. It pushes me closer to
God, and that’s really what life is all about, living/being in His
presence.
