so i have recently started nannying for two daughters of a girl who has been my friend since we were in kindergarten. one of them is a little over a year and the other is four. the four year old goes to school in the morning so it is just me and baby. we hang out, we dance a little, we play dolls, we play the piano, we cuddle. normally she is a very calm, relaxed baby whose expressions could seriously be used in a newer version of “Look Who’s Talking.”
well all this week she has been sick… so have i…
she had it last week and gave it to me. yesterday i was trying to get her to go down for her nap because she was so cranky. if i picked her up, she cried. if i put her down to walk, she cried. if i laid her down, she cried. finally i just picked her up and started rubbing her back. i gave her, her “blankie” to cuddle with.
finally her wails turned into sobs
sobs to short breaths with a whine at the end
those turned into deep breaths
which finally turned into snoring because she is so stuffed up.
i tried to put her down but she cried so i just held her. she was curled up as scrunched as she could get while being vertical in my arms with my shoulder as her pillow. it was in that moment that I got a glimpse into how God sees us. she was so adorable. she was so precious. she was so tired. she just needed to rest in my arms. she didn’t want to be alone. she needed someone to hold her. to quietly soothe her and rub her back. for that moment i saw what needs to happen in my life every day. just like small children need to nap and need their rest i need that same rest in my spiritual life. but i just cant get comfortable enough to rest without resting in my Abba.
i am so so so very thankful for the opportunity to do this. i am thankful for this place in my life. i am thankful for being single without any children of my own. i am thankful for my friends. i am thankful for my family. i am thankful for my community. i am thankful for my squad. so many praises. God is doing big things around here and i cannot wait to be able to continue in this journey.
resting tonight.
praying for my squad.
praying for all of you, that God might move you to support this journey. it has only just begun.
i am learning to surrender and to trust every single day.
much love,
-A
I also wanted to share that I am about $1000 short of my deadline.
can you help me get there? for those who are already helping THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU from the bottom of my toes. i wouldn’t be able to do this without you.
