R is for Relationship.

It’s been almost exactly a year since I’ve posted a blog on this site. I quite literally just up and abandoned it last May. I’m sure it got lost in the shuffle somewhere between packing up the Community Life program (and all my belongings) and transitioning from Gainesville, GA to Redding, CA to attend Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry.

It never really was my intention to let it lie dormant for so long, but I guess time gets the best of you and priorities get shifted. In all honesty, I liked the freedom of NOT writing. It’s as if I had placed a burden on myself that I ‘should’ update and write more often. Not that I was the most consistent blog writer before, but when I wrote it was to inform, intrigue, inspire and sometimes even entertain you. The only drawback was that I think I stopped short of inviting you…and that’s what I want to remedy on this go round. 

Now before you get all concerned and think that I’ve cocooned and become some crazy socially awkward misfit out here in Cali, let me explain. I have a lot of friends. Most of you reading this blog I would probably consider a friend, but I wonder how much you really know me. Do you know my heart?

I can easily answer that for you:   No. You don’t. Because I haven’t really let you in.

Sorry about that.

I let you in deep enough to know me pretty well, but in reality, there’s so much more to me that you don’t know. And that’s a bit scary…at least for me.

Because now I have a choice to make. Do I let you in or continue to keep you at a distance? Will my silence be a shield around my heart or will I take one step closer and see what happens? 

Decisions…Decisions…

I hope you can already tell that the decision I’ve made has accounted for the shift in my motive for blogging once again. I want to let you in. I want this blog to be about an invitation…an invitation into RELATIONSHIP with me.

Part of a relationship involves a Response from you. I’ve often pondered putting up a blog this past year, but wondered who would benefit from it…who would care…what is the point?

I’ve come to the conclusion that the point is Relationship. It’s what I want out of this blog. I want it to be a place of connection and so I’ll need your comments and encouragement to continue in this venture. I actually really like writing and want to share some tidbits about life with you, but I’m just not into throwing my random thoughts out into cyberland for my own benefit. This isn’t blog therapy for me. This is connection time and I need you.

I’ve also recently learned that I’m not really good at asking for what I need, so writing this blog is a huge Risk for me. Even riskier than praying for this blind lady, if you can imagine that! If I can take risks in praying for people and see God show up, surely I can take risks to grow deeper in relationship with you! 

Here’s what I need: (deep breath)

• I need to know you’re out there. Did you read this blog? Will you comment just so I know I’m not writing to a brick wall?
  
• I need your encouragement. Have you seen something in me that is commendable and good? What are those things? Will you share them with me?
  
• I need to know what you want. If you’re visiting this blog, you most likely know me in ‘real life’. How can we strengthen our relationship? What do you need? If I don’t yet know you-welcome! I’m glad you’re here! I always like making new friends! What do you want to hear about on this blog in the future? How can I serve you? 
  

I’m tired of getting nowhere fast. 🙂 Won’t you go somewhere with me?? Please leave me a comment and let me know where we’re going!!   Thank you!