So, I just had this realization. I’m sitting in my room
staring at my closet. It’s packed full of clothes, shoes, flip-flops in pretty
much every color, my guitar, random odds and ends, and there in the corner of
my closet is my backpack for next year that I’ll pack everything I need in. In
the corner are my pack, tent, sleeping bag and a couple other things for next
year. I look at all the things in my closet surrounding it and really realize no matter how
much stuffing I do or creative packing I come up with, hardly any of my closet
it going to fit. I’ve had a running list of things in my head that I don’t want
to forget to pack or things I need, but essentially what I fit in
is what I’ll have. Now, I’m not totally crazy, and definitely realized from the
beginning all world racers fit their life into a backpack and head out and am game for the challenge. And I have known the lifestyle of next year is
something that is going to stretch me and I’ll be relying on the Lord for it
all to come together, but man, do I like to feel prepared by my ideas and
what’s on all my post-it notes to pack and bring! But in this moment as I look
at Philippians 4:19 “and my God will fully satisfy every need of yours
according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus” I’m realizing how silly it is
to get caught up in what I “need.” Because what it is I really need can’t fit
in my backpack and doesn’t come from my closet and isn’t on the list on all my
post-it notes. God will fully satisfy every need! “Do not worry about your life,
what you will eat or what you will drink, or about your body, what you will
wear. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing”(Matthew
6:25). Packing will happen, shoving into lots of things into my pack will
happen, but knowing that what’s left behind and doesn’t fit isn’t a worry and
the stuff that fits is just that, stuff. The focus is not on things, but on what God has provided and they ways he has prepared myself and my teammates, and the way he will use us in His given ways. Nothing I take or put on my post-it list
will be as satisfying as what God provides and what he leads me to and I follow
through with. So, stuff is stuff, and God is way bigger and more satisfying
then any amount stuff or anything that will be in my pack. The end 🙂
