I guess this is some sort of poetical thought process that I had. Im not really sure how to classify it. After a few really hard days at Eden that were packed full of spiritual activity both positive and negative this is how I felt. My eyes were opened in a way that is hard to communicate in real words or conversations. I began to see good and evil in a very tangible way that makes you realize that humanity is small and something much bigger than us is taking place all around. The really strange thing is that everyone is exposed to these happenings but not everyone is given the capacity or ability to recognize it. Not everyone is able to bare such a thing. Why I was exposed is questionable but not by chance. Sorry for all the vagueness…… it’s just complicated.
July 27th 2015
Today I gained fresh knowledge and wisdom. I am now prepared to advance to the next level of education. Before today my heart and mind weren’t ready for the new curriculum. Had you exposed me sooner it would have been like trying to learn calculus with out first knowing basic multiplication or algebra. Everything would have been dismissed with confusion and disinterest. Every course in my life thus far was merely a prerequisite for the course you’ve enrolled me in now. As it goes with enrollment, I have a few choices. I can quietly audit the class without engaging, only observing. (Be mindful that auditing does not lend forth a degree thus no advancement will be permitted.) I can drop the course at anytime that it feels too difficult or even before it begins. (Once again no degree no advancement.) My final option is to endure the course and earn the degree I need to press forward. To endure the course won’t be easy. One must commit to study and ask questions for better understanding. Intentional participation will prepare me to pass the tests and exams with ease.
Out of these options only one gives me the access needed to proceed to the next level of education. Choosing the next level is also my choice. Not everyone is called to be an engineer. Not everyone is called to be a doctor and that’s ok. The trouble comes when the need for engineers and doctors arises. If I had the calling and the capacity to learn but denied the education what good would that be in the time of need?
The truth is I have not been called to be an engineer. I have not ben called to be a doctor. I have been called to be an ambassador for Christ. Like any other job it has prerequisites. I must study his words in the textbook for life. My tests and exams look much different from most, for they are written by one who wishes me to fail. He will not succeed. By equipping myself with the truth of God’s word I am invincible. My engagement in this course will result in the restoration of a kingdom. Do I want to lead a revolution or quietly standby? It’s my choice. Today I was invited to the next course, will I audit, withdraw or engage?
