As I am currently in the process of raising support for this incredible journey that God has called me to, I am finding that I’ve been freaking out a little bit that I am not further along in my fundraising. I have to raise $16,250…that is a big number! I have never had to raise such a significant amount of money for such a significant trip. To be completely honest I have always struggled with giving my finances over to the Lord. That is one thing that I think I have held too close. I have had this misconception that my money is my money, when in reality it is God’s money. Everything that I have and everything that I am comes from God and while I know that, I still struggle with allowing Him to have that part of my life. Why is that the case? I know that God has full control over everything so why do I worry?
The other day as I was spending time with the Lord I asked Him this very question. I asked him why I was nervous about fundraising. Why do I constantly check my fundraising account as if checking it more will increase the amount present? Why is it all I can think about? The response and peace He gave me was reassuring:
“It’s a matter of control, Allison. Fundraising is not something you can do alone…You need Me. Just like in everything else, you need Me. Stop trying to control different aspects of your fundraising and let it go. You’ll find freedom in letting Me have control. You’ll feel less anxiety when you stop gripping onto this illusion of control and give it to Me. Calm down and be still. I will not abandon you. I will not let you down. Just trust Me. I love you, My Daughter; trust that My promise is true.”
The more I try to be in control, the more out of control I feel because the control isn’t mine to have.
So I say to you, my friends, the reason why I fundraise is because I offer up my full trust that God can and will provide in ways that I couldn’t even imagine. I fundraise because I know that it is impossible to come up with $16,250 on my own. Without my Father and without the help of y’all this is impossible but with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26). I ask that you come alongside me in this journey and join what God has called me to. Everyone who supports me financially and through prayer is a part of this 11 month journey because without your help I cannot go. Your help and support makes it so that I can be the hands and feet of Christ.
Thank you to those of you who have already supported me and to those of you who are prayerfully considering it! Your help and support brings eternal life change to the nations!
