Where Am I?
So I have been spending the last week or in a little town called Mijas on the south coast of Spain.Admittedly (as you can see by the picture) it’s not the worst place to be and it got me thinking… I have had a very abnormal life to say the least these last 2 years. It has been my norm to move every month and not just move cities, but countries and many time continents. It’s funny because every time a season has come to an end I’ve thought “Man I just don’t think it could get better than that!.” This was the same after I graduated from college, ended my job at Camp Cedar Cliff, finished the World Race, and finished squad leading. You would think that by now I would realize that things are just getting better.
I have had this irrational thought in the back of my mind recently that at some point my next season won’t be as good as the last. Really I think I just couldn’t bear the fact that God actually wants to bless me more than I would want to bless myself. I’m still growing to learn more about how with my God I’m in a covenant of indulgence not just one of necessity or survival. He is such a good Father that gives good gifts.
I’m finally in Europe not because it’s one of the last continents that I hadn’t been to yet, but because God began to bend my heart towards our generation here about month 7 of my first race. It’s crazy that I’m finally here and while I have been in a great community at G42 (a discipleship school here in Mijas) I’m about to move further out of my comfort zone and further into the place where God has to show up or I fail.
My whole life I’ve had at least 3 months planned out before I go into a new season. This time I barely know what I’m doing 3 days in advance. Don’t mistake this, however, for a lack of direction. While I feel like I know much less about things than I ever have before I feel like I’m much closer to my Father than I ever have been before. I was praying yesterday about more direction over the next four months or so and all he told me was up, not left, right, or even straight, just up. I guess I’m ok with that now because that’s what my heart really desires anyways.
Why Am I Here?
Later this week I will be traveling to the UK to go to a Prophetic Worship conference called David’s Tent. It’s such a blessing because I know God has great plans for the people here and I know he is going to use music and worship to fulfill his purposes. I should probably write another blog about what God has spoken to me about music here, but for now lets just say it’s gonna be great, it’s gonna be wild, and it’s gonna be full of Him.
I will admit it was really hard the first couple days coming from places of poverty like Nicaragua and Cambodia to a place like the coast of Spain. It was even more of a culture shock than going home last year. It is one thing bringing Christ to people who recognize their needs, but it’s another things bringing Christ to a place where no one thinks they need anything. I don’t think I have ever been in a culture where everyone is convinced they have together more than here. I was walking the streets during a festival last week and everyone was so well dressed, happy, “fulfilled” that I couldn’t help but fall into the mindset that they were ok. There weren’t even any homeless people or street kids to turn to it all seemed fine!
It’s for this reason, however, that when the Truth of Jesus catches fire it’s really going to do some damage…but for now it’s day by day as I take steps in no particular direction besides ones towards my Father.
To-Do List for the rest of 2012
- Go to Worship Conference later this week
- Go to Month 8 Debrief in Kenya
- Go to Month 11 debrief in India
- Do something for Christmas
I just thought this was funny, so we’ll see what God does…
