When I found out we had an Ask the Lord (ATL) month where we
would pray and be led by the Lord to a location in SE Asia I was super excited
to see what that would look like. But
looking back I realized I was excited because I knew I wanted to go to Vietnam
and was pretty confident I could convince everyone on my team that was where we
all wanted to go. So as the time rolled around to be praying into our ATL month
I realized it really wasn’t going to take much convincing as the majority of my
team Roar wanted to go to Vietnam. I was
all set for ATL also known to me as Vietnam, so here we are at our ATL in
Thailand….WAIT WHAT! How did I get here?
Let me explain,
about two months ago when I was lifting ATL up to the Lord He pretty clearly
spoke Thailand. I shoved it under the
rug and kept pursuing other options.
Eventually, after lifting this up to Him several times He spoke “you
choose and I will bless your ministry.” With that freedom I went searching for
the best ministry everywhere but Thailand.
Great opportunities came up in Vietnam and Malaysia. Logan on my team had received an email back
from a ministry in Chiang Mai, Thailand where some of the girls from O squad
had worked the month before. Logan and
Tyler on my team began to have great peace over being at this ministry. Me on the other had and few others on my team
were frantic to find something outside of Thailand.
The
night before we had to make the decision it came down to Vietnam and Thailand.
I lifted it once again to the Lord and He said “do you hear my whisper” I shot
back “ok come on God speak louder” He said “My whisper is through your community”. I realized that God had given Logan and Tyler
peace and they are two people I would trust with everything if they feel they
are hearing from the Lord. I realized the depths of community and love for one
another that God calls us too. I truly
would trust them with my life and I know they only want what is good for me and
our team. Right then and there I let go
of my physical desire to go to Vietnam and agreed to follow my Father’s will,
my leader Tyler and Logan to back to Thailand to work with Light House an
awesome ministry where we will be working with women in the bars/sextrade.
This
experience has brought about many learning opportunities and questions such as am
I ready to follow where God calls if it doesn’t fit into my desires? Am I ready
to surrender to my community? Am I paying
attention to His whisper? I am not sure how to answer all of these yet but I am
thankful to Lord for the revelation of greater depths that He calls us to.
