A few more days will mark the middle of the Race for
me. I look back on the last 5 ½ months
and thank God for some of the most amazing opportunities. To think I have another 5 ½ months to
continue to experience God’s splendor in His creation and serve those in need
is such an amazing feeling.
The first half of the
Race I experienced incredible growth and healing. I was able to serve but I also know it was
God’s opportunity to transform me. I had
always seen God as a master not as a father.
I was always so focused on being a good Christian. Did I serve enough at church, did I love
enough, did I act how the church told me to act. I was focused on doing for the Lord instead
of letting Him love me as a father loves a daughter. The last few months in Africa have been the
most rewarding seasons of my life. Not
having a father growing up I couldn’t understand that unconditional love, but
our Father in heaven is absolutely a father to the fatherless. I have been able to sit in the presence of
the most High God and hear who I am in His eyes. I know who I am because I have seen the I am.
I think if I were not
to learn anything else in my lifetime I would still leave this earth a rich
woman. I am now able to love others based off of the overflow from my Father
and not force myself to because that’s what a “good” Christian does. I am finding our actions are worthless if we
are lacking the intimacy with our Father.
A blog I wrote coming into Africa talked about a word from the Lord my
teammate got for me. She said “this will
be a new season and there will be new healing for me.” I have seen this word come to pass in my life
and I am so thankful for God’s abundant love for us. I am excited to see how God is going to move
in my life as I transition into a new season.
Just
as the Father has loved Me, I have also loved you; abide in My love. If you keep My commandments, you will abide
in My love; just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His
love. These things I have spoken to you
so that My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be made full. John 15 9-11
