This journey so far has been a complete whirlwind & really it hasn’t even begun yet!
I know that God opens doors and closes them for reasons I might not understand. As I deepen my relationship with Him an understanding for this grows and the opening & closing of doors is easier to accept with a greater trust in Jesus.
However, what I forget at times is that rejection is part of God closing a door, and that is a hard pill for me to swallow.
Rejection. ouch.
Nobody likes it and no matter how often it happens, it is never easy to handle.
What I also forget- is that God’s view on rejection is completely different than mine. Being casted out or not chosen by anything always leads me to self-criticism. I find myself blaming what I am not as the reason for the loss.
But God is so amazingly gracious as he quickly saves me from these lies. He scoops me up, repositions my directions & tells me :“look daughter, look at what I have waiting for you instead.” How wonderful is the ways God shows His love for me.
It is so easy to blame myself for not getting something I worked for, or not being accepted in what I chased after. But He will never close a door on us that is not meant to be revisited again.
As I prepare for many things for this trip, my heart is something I need to intentionally keep check of. As I open my heart to everything Jesus is providing me with, I need to in full trust let go of what He is trying to rid my life of. What I may see as rejection, His plan is preparing my heart for something so much greater.
In the months leading up to my departure in July, there will be no room for doubt or lies. If this wasn’t in God’s plan, I would not have the reality of leaving in 5 short months on a journey around the world. When we ask God for something, a door is opened by Him. We are showing our faith in Him, and faith gives God something to work with. Scripture does say that without faith it is impossible to please Him. He is good and He has good things in store for us.
I pray to be bold in my prayers and what I am asking God for. I pray that I shy away from the feeling of rejection, and accept it as a means to something greater beyond what I can see. I will put my faith to work, because He is faithful.
I want to focus on preparing my heart for rejection and closed doors. I know there may be many, but I also know that my God is so incredibly loving that when this will arise, He will be there to cast my vision on something more beautiful and fulfilling than before.
