I've been waiting for the right time to put up my last Malaysia blog. There was just so much from the last 12 days there that I had to give myself a little bit of time to sort out my feelings. There are just so many churning in me.
The last part of our month we stayed in Bhuket Metajar with an amazing woman named Janet. Have you ever met someone that you just immediately felt drawn to, but aren't sure why or even what continues to spur it on? Well, that was Janet for me. Janet opened up a new world of thought and feelings for me. Most of the time I would wake up in the morning eager to see what the day held since it would be encompassed with her.
She is the kind of woman that doesn't know how to exist outside of the Lord in any capacity. She doesn't know how to even breathe without it being a praise to God. Day in and day out she was sought out for council and prayer, she would do the every day ordinary like laundry by seeking the provision of the Lord (down to the most basic part, asking the sun to come out to dry the clothes) and making sure that every single person that was in proximity of her spirit had every need met.
Janet presented me with so many challenges. She called me to be more reliant on Christ than I've ever been in my life. I would ask her the most simple questions, for example, "But Janet, I'm going to want to talk to you when I leave and you don't have internet, how will I talk to you? How about you get email? For me?" Janet's response was simple of course, "You tell the Lord you need me and He'll tell me, then I'll let Him know and He'll tell you. We don't need email, we need the Spirit."
I love this woman more than I knew was possible for me to love someone I only had the privilege of knowing for 12 days. I think in part it's because she's everything I hope to know one day; every part of me, aching for every part of Christ, and never getting enough to be satisfied.
She challenged me to trust more, both in Holy Spirit and in my own discernment. She challenged me to serve more not because I am capable, but because I'm called to. She challenged me to meet the needs of others no matter how great or small. Most of all she challenged me to embrace every part of myself that wants to fall in love with Christ so much more than ever before so that I can experience the kind of immense joy that comes from intimacy with Him.
She knows that if I'm called back to Malaysia I will be on her doorstep ready to be her driver and whatever else she needs from me. She will forever be a huge part of the woman in Christ I become and I will be forever thankful.
Philippians 1:3 "I thank my God in all of my remembrances of you."
