Today marks the three week point. Three weeks from today I will be getting on a plane and leaving LAX headed to the Philippines. Today began a whole new level of thoughts. These thoughts have been kind of resonating for a while, but I guess it took me some time to really admit how real they are.
Today began the first of many goodbyes to come over the next few weeks. So many people ask questions in the midst of their goodbyes that I have tried to kind of think beyond, take it on with more of a Matthew 6:34 approach. So simple, and yet immensely comforting all at the same time. However, it's slowly becoming more real.
I don't think it'll fully be real until the first month passes or I hit a series of hard days along the way and I find myself longing for a comfort zone of what comes easy to me or the safety of being around the people that are comfort for my soul. But the desire for growth that God wants for me is starting to stir now.
I can't figure out how to express the stirring that's occurring in the depths of me in a way that wouldn't lessen everything that I know God is trying to tell me I'm capable of. With that being said, this song compels me, it is my declaration for this year. I hope that the chorus is my heart's comfort zone and safety for the next eleven months.
