2. I've learned what it means to worship with an abandoned heart before Christ and not care at all who's watching.
One of the many blessings of training camp was that we had the privilege of worship every morning and evening, a double dose! I don’t know about you, but singing praises and making declarations of who God is through song is one of my favorite parts of life with Christ. I am not a singer by any means, I mean I at least sound better than Happy Feet when he’s belting his heart song, but the fact that my heart is what God hears instead of my voice brings me a certain freedom.
I know that when I’m worshipping Him I have His most sincere and undivided attention. Even more astounding than that, I know my community is getting the same undivided and sincere attention that I am. Through pouring our songs, praises, acclamations, declarations and just flat crying out to Him we are building up the body. We are edified in Christ both personally and as a whole at the same time without any of us feeling that He is a God of lack by diverting His attention from one to the other, but we get to experience Him as a King of abundance instead, giving each of us all of the attention we could need! (thank you caroline!)
Worship has always played a major role in my life. Sadly a majority of it hasn’t been spent chasing after God and all of the desires He has for my life, but instead it’s been spent chasing after the world and everything it doesn’t have to offer me. Ever since the beginning of the summer when I sold all of my belongings I have felt this freedom. A new chance to start living life the way I should have been all along. But that freedom didn’t come full circle until my time at training.
Training camp was definitely a "bubble," and typically I am not a fan of bubbles because I feel like they shield you from the necessaries of life. However, this week I needed that bubble more than I could have ever realized. Being surrounded by 147 other people screaming out everything they had for Christ, like there wasn’t a volume that could justify how intense the connection was with Him in those moments will capture you. It will challenge you. It will change you.
I will be forever surrendered before Him in worship because of it.
