I have this thing where I call major revelations one of two things. It can either be an epifanny or an epiphany. An epifanny is when this major revelation I have stumbled on is something that ultimately affects my life because I end up looking like a rear for thinking I could handle it on my own and do it my way. An epiphany is when I actually allow myself to be open enough and relinquish enough control over my life to let God flood me with his perfect insight.
Lately, God has been diligently been teaching me obedience. During this time I have experienced both epifannies and epiphanies.
He’s been so patient as to sit back and watch me panic and question and plan, plan, plan my life, enough planning will work everything out. Major epifanny.
Assuming that every single desire in my heart is there because God must have put it there and grown it in me. Major epifanny.
Making it a point to pray to God that he should just go ahead and let me have exactly what I want because it’s worth it and if He loved me he would make it happen. Major epifanny.
Allowing myself to be deterred from a true and growing relationship with Christ that’s filled with grace and mercy, that thrives on a new hope every day, and is ultimately life altering if you let it be. Major epifanny.
Quieting my mind and shutting everything else out around me with just the hope of hearing His direction and allowing my heart to be changed by it. Epiphany.
Learning that, no I don’t get to make the plans for my life, but I do get the choice to choose God in everything I do. Epiphany.
Hitting a point where I realized that I’m not God, so it doesn’t matter how hard I try, I’ll never get it right on my own. Epiphany.
Realizing that my only job really is to be broken enough to see that the only thing that matters is His kingdom, and making sure that every person that will let me in, knows about it. Epiphany.
Finding my identity in Him, not in my friends, not in my family, not in expectations people have built of me based on who I’ve always been. Epiphany.
Experiencing a life of obedience. Doing my best every day to give Him the opportunity to delight in me and that I am living as the servant that He created me to be. Epiphany.
Embracing freedom, true freedom in Christ is like nothing I’ve ever known.
22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror 24and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it-he will be blessed in what he does. James 1:22-25
These are just a few things that I have learned along the way. I’m sure it’s unexpected, but I delight in my epifannies because it will give me the opportunity to connect with people and share an empathy for a life I have known myself. However, it will also give me the opportunity to share my epiphanies so that they my know the same kind of acceptance and grace that God so freely gives ALL the time. I delight in my epifannies because they ultimately tore me apart and allowed God to instill a yearning for reaching and serving people with the same kind of love He has shown me.
