I am still trying to process everything that happened at training camp, and honestly I don't know that words would ever do it justice. But one must try so here is part of what I learned during the craziest week of my life;
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Vulnerability is key.
Be real. Be who you are. Tell people your story – your squad genuinely cares, and the freedom you will feel is astonishing. -
Grieving.
Grief: keen mental suffering over affliction or loss; sharp sorrow; to suffer disappointment, misfortune or other trouble.
My world had seemingly fallen apart a couple months ago, I’d never felt more broken, more distant from God and I’ve never shut down my emotions the way I did in that one single moment – all of that changed this week. I’ve never felt His love, and joy in such a powerful way. I’ve never been so broken and yet so free. I learned to really grieve. There is such freedom in saying that I'm not OK, and knowing that day by day God is healing my heart. Your feelings and emotions are legit. No matter how big or small your loss grieve it! -
Community
I've had roommates (miss you ladies of Narnia & the Cottage) but I've never lived in community the way I did this past week. 24/7 is a whole new concept, and I have VERY mixed emotions about it, but I cannot wait to see the beauty in it. X squad is so much more then some friends I'm spending a year with, they've become family and there are no words to describe how privileged I feel to spend the year serving beside them. They are the most loving, caring, genuine people I've ever gotten to spend time with. They (even from miles away) make me smile daily and push me to pursue God in a crazy way. X squad I love you, and I'm so excited to do life with each and everyone of you. -
I am who God says I am
I am His beautiful creation, and He is using me to bring His kingdom, to show His love. He chose me. He is actively pursing me. I am His. He is using my life to write His story.
“I'm a little pencil in the hand of a writing God, who is sending a love letter to the world."
Training camp blew my mind. It rocked my world. It was the most challenging, and yet beautiful week. It will push you to your limits emotionally, mentally and physically. It is exhausting! But if you asked me if I'd do it again I would say ABSOLUTELY!
This year is going to be challenging, its not to be messy. Its going to break my heart, and bring healing. Its going to be filled with joy and love. I can't wait to embark on this crazy adventure and to bring Jesus to the nations. Please continue pray for this upcoming year and to prayerfully consider supporting me on this adventure. I am still $2400 away from being able to launch in September with the rest of my squad, and $11,400 away from being fully funded.
