I could not tell you the last time I looked at myself in a mirror. I have no idea what I actually look like, physically, to others on most days. So, when I say there are no distractions – I mean absolutely none! What does this have to do with anything? Well, since no distractions leaves a lot of time to spend with God… for me this month, a lot of time with God has led me to much self reflection. And, since what I physically look like to others holds no merit on the world race – what I look like spiritually to God does.
I have been asking God a lot of questions and He keeps telling me the same answers to all of them.
He didn’t call me here to do ANYTHING!
He called me here to be willing to let Him do EVERYTHING!
He wants me to become a donkey.
He wants me to loose my vision.
The next day, the news that Jesus was on the way to Jerusalem swept through the city. A huge crowd of Passover visitors took palm branches and went down the road to meet Him. They shouted, “Praise God! Bless the one who comes in the name of the Lord! Hail to the King of Israel! Jesus fond a young donkey and sat on it, fulfilling the prophecy that said: “Don’t be afraid, people of Israel. Look, your king is coming, sitting on a donkey’s colt.” John 12:12-15 NLT
But He replied, “We must go on to other towns as well, and I will preach to them, too, because that is why I came.” Mark 1:38 NLT
I want to be a donkey. I want to carry Jesus into all the places we travel. I want to lift Him high so everyone can see Him coming. I want to bring Him in and let Him do what He came to do – preach, heal, release freedom… LOVE… I do not want to be or do anything else. And, I am learning that I don’t have to… He doesn’t really want me to do anything else. I am just to take the CHRIST IN ME where ever He wants to go to do whatever He wants to do. I am just to carry Him in and let Him do His thing.
I want to be blind. I want to let go of “my” vision. I had an idea of how I wanted things to go this year on this trip; I had things I expected would/should happen this year. I had a vision. I even wrote it out Habakkuk style. But, He has to be my only vision. I want to go where He goes, say what He says, do what He does… that is my vision. I only want to set my eyes on Him. He IS the vision.
I want to be a child. I just want to love my daddy and be an obedient child. I want to have faith and meekness and joy and love as a child. I do not want to preform, I want to watch – watch Him. I don’t want to try, I want to let – let Him.
God is doing some awesome stuff in this village. But, I don’t know why I am surprised. That is His job. That is why He came. That is whey we brought Him here – carried Him in – to preach, heal, release freedom and to LOVE. I am just beyond thankful that He has allowed me to join Him here, to witness His miracles, to see His healing, to participate in His love. I am so over joyed that God called me to be His donkey!!