Throughout my preparation for the World Race there has been a huge part of me that feels so inadequate. I ask myself – am I really ready for this? Do I have what if takes to do God’s work? Am I good enough? Is my faith strong enough? Am I really the right person for this job?
And the answer is NO! Absolutely not. I am not ready. I am not good enough. And alone, I am not the “right person” for this daunting task. My life has been easy. My trials have been few and far between. I do not know hunger or thirst or poverty or illness. I’ve never even broken a bone. I have been so privileged.
So why me?
Because God is with me. I do not know hunger, but he does. I cannot cure illness, but He can. I cannot comfort the depressed or burdened, but His love knows no bounds. I have come to realize that God knows my strengths and my faults, and he will use me in a ways that I can’t even fathom. I am ever changing and growing into the daughter he has called me to be, and he is patient and merciful. He does not call the qualified, he qualifies the called. I have a lot of “qualifying” to do, but I am comforted by the fact that God is our greatest teacher.
I am heading to training camp this weekend, and I will be meeting my squad and my team for the first time. The reality of the World Race is really starting to sink in, and I am reminded that while I might not be completely ready I am certainly willing. I am praying and preparing and trying to let God mold me into the servant he has called me to be. I am simply His work in progress.
