So I have 43 days left in America until I finally launch for the World Race… that’s terrifying!!! But somehow I am weirdly at peace with it and I cannot wait for it to come. God has called me to this mission and no matter what struggles and doubts I am going through, I know that He has my back. I just sit in that moment and thank God for where I am and where He is planning to take me. But honestly I keep having these panic moments where I ask God if this is really what I am suppose to be doing, but I keep getting the same answer which is YES. I mean there’s no way I am qualified to be doing this, but God has put me on this path and has provided everything for me to go. I have no excuse! As Lil Wayne says, “I don’t need is to be easy, I need it to be worth it”.
In other news…
Recently I finished the book of Hosea, which is essentially a love story between the prophet Hosea and a prostitute named Gomer. The story parallels with God’s love for us. Even though we are ratchet sinners, God still loves us and wants a relationship with us, regardless of our pasts. Hosea 2:14 “Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her. He allows us to go into the wilderness, because sometimes that is where we need and are willing to hear Him the most. This whole World Race journey has been nothing but a wilderness of chaos. With so much preparation still going on, I am continuously getting in over my head and realizing that I am not allowing God room to intervene. But it is in these moments of utter chaos when I hear God the most and most of the time He is telling me to just relax. He is speaking to me tenderly and revealing himself to me amongst the craziness. I am learning that God never really shows up that way we expect and that just when you feel like you are getting lost in the wilderness, He shows up with a flashlight to walk with you through it.
The wilderness is a necessity to finding out who you really are.
So just to update everyone on my new life in Indiana:
I recently just started my job as a jumper on a UPS truck (so I basically just run packages up to people’s houses while the driver drives). It is a great temporary job as I prepare to leave for the race! I am living by myself in my grandfather’s old house. It has been somewhat boring, but I have been keeping myself busy by doing random furniture projects, watching the office, and burning stuff in my backyard. I lead an exciting life… I DID finally get to see the fall season happen for real. The leaves were green, then orange, then gone, and now it’s getting cold! I’m so excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas and I hope and pray that it will snow before I leave.
That’s about it.
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