I know I promised a video blog but instead I did a facebook live event that turned out to be about an hour long. So if you want to see that it is on my facebook page! However I felt God pushing me to write a blog as well, hope you enjoy it.
Being home is weird. It doesn’t feel like I’m really home because of the fact that things have changed. I feel at home when my whole family is together but when its just me at home I find myself so alone. I never really had true alone time for 9 months and now when I do I’ve forgotten how to go about it. My friends have been great at listening and some really truly want to hear my stories but after awhile they get bored or I end up repeating a story to them without knowing it. It’s a fine line that I’m walking now that I’m back in America and wanting to be elsewhere. It strange to me that I wont be packing up and leaving in two months to go to another country that instead I will be planted in Roswell GA for awhile. There are lots of things that I miss about the race but yet again I finally have what I had been yearning for, for so long. Home.
There are some of my struggles and some things that I have felt since being back but yet there are so many joyful aspects that come with being here. My incredible best friends, the love and support of people all over, and especially having my family near me (not to mention all of my favorite places).
Although Roswell seems to be around the same there is still so much change. I came home to find challenges I didn’t expect and also things I had been fighting for so long being magnified even more. The only thing that is keeping me stable is that God has this. This crazy process of coming back, getting a job, figuring out where I stand, He has me. Through all of the incredible times of being home to the hardest he has it all planned out. I will not lie to you and say that being back has been the best, because it hasn’t. As I stated before some parts have sucked but when I feel overwhelmed God wraps his arms around me. So home is an incredibly weird thing. It’s a whole new season of life that I have just entered into. I know that as I continue to find God here in Roswell and share his love He will be there for me cheering me on.
I love being home, I also hate being home. However, its truly beautiful to see how God is using that to keep me going. I am so grateful for the people I have standing by me and helping me through this transition because I know that that’s how God is moving, through people. You guys have followed The Race from start to finish, but now my journey is starting. Thank you for your prayers and love.
