The Conversation Went Something Like This,
“So here at the World Race you know that leadership changes often. Leadership comes in seasons, and each leader will experience their season in the right time. We don't know what those seasons will look like, whether they be long or short, but we believe everyone who leads, leads in their proper timing. So me and the other squad leaders were in prayer about all this and we really feel like God spoke and is having you step down from the Team Leader position. This is not a reflection of your leadership, or style of leadership. This is also not because you've done anything wrong; in fact, you've done an incredible job bringing your team through this time of ministry so far. Truly, we are so appreciative of all the work you've put into your team. You've done an awesome job, Abby. But when the Lord was speaking to us, we all feel like He was speaking you into a season of rest and digging deep into your relationship with Him. We want to honor you and your team and what God has spoken and enable you for this next season in your life. Again, this is no reflection on your leadership, this is no insult, this is just us listening to what the Lord's said for you.”
I had been listening intently, nodding occasionally. At his conclusion I began to smile.
“So how are you feeling about all this?” Joel inquired.
“To be honest?” I paused, arranging the intricacies of my words in the correct order. “This is so good” I choked out.
I was grinning from ear to ear despite the tears. I wasn't upset. I wasn't disheartened. I wasn't drowning in the lies that tell me how horrible of a job I did, neglecting what my squad leaders had just told me, “a job well done”. I was whelmed with emotion. I was letting go. I was being gently lead into the next season of my Race. I was given a new lens with which to gaze about. I was delving into a season of rest. I was having the desires of my heart answered.
I did not wish specifically to be released from the responsibilities of team leadership; however, I did ask over and over again to know Christ more intimately. I did ask for such opportunities to be presented to me. I did ask for quality time. I did ask for more quiet time. I did ask for resolution and joy, refinement and peace.
And so, with this transfer I had felt and still feel, if not even more so, utterly at peace.
So here's to Scott Kwak, my wonderful team leader! I have every confidence in Scott, that he will lead and be lead by the Spirit, that he will set the tone for our group and that he will cover our team in prayer. I am honored to be lead by such a servant and have only the greatest excitement in this, our changing season.
I pass the torch, resting in His plan.. and it is a marvelous thing.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare, and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29:11-13
Dios le bendiga~
God bless you~
