Back to True Love
*Be forewarned: the words written here are raw and written from a place of complete surrender–I wish I didn't have to share some of this. Written early hours of 2/13/2011
I've been struggling lately. My mind has been a constant battlefield. Saturday morning came with the worst gunfire and bombardments from the dregs of Hell.
When I first came to Thailand, I immediately fell in love with this country, more so than any other country so far on this Race. I believe it was this fact, amongst a few others that God wishes to be kept between He and I, that the spindly-fool for an enemy figured out how to frustrate and disrupt me within our ministry here in Khao Lak.
One area frustrating me has been the changes in the schedule from being able to spend time at the Child Development Centers (pre-schools) Step Ahead has, for I have fallen in love with the children we have met at each one I've been to. However, things changed. So, on Saturday we went to a community center to perform a skit, play games, and sing songs. It was just what I needed to guide me back from my frustration. We had things prepared and arrieved at this community center where there were a few kids along with our friend Diana. She split us up with a child or two to walk around the neighborhood and invite other children to come to our program.
The boy I was with walked me around a block, then left me for a bit at the center, where a lady showed up, asked me where I was from, as well as if I was here in Thailand full time. My heart skipped, clicked, or something because as soon as she asked I said 'no, but on the inside I said, 'but one day and this community center wil be a hub of light for God's Kingdom.' I could see the community center fixed up, grass trimmed, and everything clean and ready to be used for His glory– what?!! Wow!
Anyways, one struggle down.
(pics from Dex) above: superstar!
Another aspect of frustration, I had shared with my brother in Christ and squad leader, Scotty, which helped after getting his message back. However, I was still struggling, especially Saturday morning. Our team went to watch a movie, but instead we ended up spending time talking as a team about things and God had me share my struggles. I'll be honest, I bulked and seriously wished for an invisibility cloak. Anyways, I shared with my team and got support, prayer, and their love, as well as peace from God. It was a great sigh of relief.
Another struggle on the mend.
We got done with our time together and so I went to shower, where God brought things together…please read 'Back to True Love: II'
(The next set of pics are from Sunday and Monday…I add them because the struggle is definitely mended and the time doing ministry has changed to life and enjoyable!!)
boy at church (Sunday)
Monday: The Process
Take Scythe… go to swamp and gather reeds.
Fill truckbed
Ride back on a comfy bed of reeds
and feel accomplished.
